I’m still on the Distillery Farm and it’s going well. The construction is almost done and the gardens are shaping up nicely. Another project looking good, things are going smoothly, prosperity is flowing and the project is getting great attention. So why am I thinking to pack?
Just before this project came I put it out to the powers to be that I was open to a live in project and ready to get back in the scene. At first I wanted out of the flow so I could have a normal life and enjoy a good relationship. I was also just burned out on the scene. The normal life was a not so cool break and my girlfriend left to hike the Appalachian Trail. Sequoia and I were packing about the same time and I left about a month before she did. We are both doing well on our separate ventures but I’m looking around at the point of life I’m in and wonder if I want to stay this course or look for something different in this field. Something I haven’t tried yet. The possibility of writing and getting published is a real possibility at this time and I’m seriously looking at it. I know that I have to change a few things to be able to utilize that opportunity. Mainly letting go.
I still have this warehouse full of furniture I made for when Sequoia and I were to have a home together. She doesn’t know when she will be done traveling the trail or what she will do afterwards or where our relationship will be so keeping the furniture and other house items is just another expense, far way from me. What’s the point? Then there’s this blog. It’s time for renewal but before I can do that I have to be able to tell Godaddy what my zipcode was when I started the account with them. I gave them every zip I thought we lived at and none were right so this blog may be gone around mid June. Sequoia made this site for me and it was something I got into when we were together. Seems like it may be time to let this go as well. It’s time to get paid to write.
So, I’m at this place where I pulled off another seemingly impossible project with a lot of things against it’s success. I’m getting pretty good at these things, and that is part of the problem. I don’t need the practice anymore. I want to do a project that starts smoothly, with a real plan and cool people. I don’t want to have to come up with last minute solutions for newly discovered problems that came from someone’s incompetence that ran the project before me. I want to do a project that doesn’t require me to do 80 hours a week to catch up from another person’s mistakes. I don’t want to have to be the designer, builder, farmer, promoter, therapist and Shaman at the same time, and I want some free time.
It may be time for a drastic move. Something to send a ripple in the flow. I’ll have to lighten the load to be able to move quickly when the opportunity comes and get rid of everything that doesn’t have an immediate purpose as soon as possible. I’m tired of waiting on things that may never come and tired of caring for and about things that no one else cares for. As this moon passes, I’ll be over a lot of things.
Time passes with everything in it.
Hawk – Yeah shocker I am leaving a public comment.
First I can not thank you enough for gifting me the opportunity of coming to visit the Farm. It is amazing what you have done. I have learned more in a few days than I could have in months some place else. More about farming sure – but more about me, my journey, and so much more. Enough mushy thank you stuff.
I can only pray you decide to write the books. I can assure you I will be the first one in line to buy them. I don’t see the debate you seem to be having. What you have to say should be and needs to be said. You have the ability, the knowledge, the wisdom, the stories – what is there to debate about or question?
You told me let go, remember the ripple from the stone, and no fear. You repeat that constantly – perhaps with different words. Guess with all this drastic change coming about will get to say it back atcha – huh?! Grins.
mwah